BookCon’s Lily-White Lineup: Why We’re Still Talking About Diversity

 

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Participate in enough diversity training sessions, workshops, or talks – as most young professionals have at school and in our jobs – and you’ll hear your fair share of grumbling from Gen-X and Gen-Yers.  “Diversity training again?  Really?  It’s 2014.  Who still needs to be told this stuff?”

I’m a member of Gen-Y, and most of my friends are either Gen-X or Gen-Y.*  We grew up with the message that diversity is a good and important thing.  Our friends hail from all different races, religions, ethnic groups, backgrounds.  To the extent we think about our friends’ backgrounds (which, for most of us, isn’t much or often), we like the fact that our social groups are made up of so many different faces and backgrounds.  We value the different perspectives that come with the experience of belonging to all kinds of communities.  And sometimes, we can’t believe it still has to be spelled out, because… we know.  We know diversity is good.  We know it’s important.  We know it adds value.  Diversity is a value that’s ingrained in us, has been since childhood, and we simply can’t believe there are people out there who still don’t get it, and still need it explained to them.  Because, isn’t it obvious?

Apparently, it’s not.**  Every so often, an outrage happens that leaves people shaking their heads and saying, “I guess there are still people who need to be told this stuff.”  This week, that’s BookCon.  BookCon is the new name for the power readers’ day on the final day of Book Expo America, the premier book industry gathering of the year in the U.S.  Every year, industry insiders, reviewers, bloggers and readers gather at BEA for a weekend of bookish awesome.  There’s even an “Armchair BEA” for those who can’t make it in person.  It’s a big deal and I’ve always wanted to go, until this year.

Last week or so, BookCon rolled out its lists of panelists and readers scratched their heads at the lineup of one of the most important panels – a kidlit and YA celebrity panel – made up entirely of white males.  The conversation began in smoky confusion.  “Um, guys?  This is the lineup?  This is the final lineup?  Uhhhh, but… Where are the women?  Where are the people of color?”  BookCon’s reaction – an apology-that-wasn’t-really-an-apology from its organizer, ReedPop, followed by a head-scratching decision not to change anything because people were still buying tickets (but what about all those people demanding refunds, BookCon?) added fuel, and now it’s a raging fire.  Within the last few days, BookCon extended an invitation to a female author of color to join as a panelist.  (They had previously invited her to moderate, with a list of pre-approved questions.  When she asked if she could be on the panel, they declined.)  Many considered the invitation too little, too late and pointed out (correctly, I think) that it smacks of tokenism.  It also puts the newly invited author in an untenable position.  Does she want to accept the invitation and enjoy the publicity, but at the price of being the token female and the token person of color?  Or does she want to reject it and take a stand, but lose out on the publicity for her work?  It’s a no-win situation, and completely unfair to her.

I’m not going to say more about the controversy, because BookRiot has already said it all so well.  (Check out this post for just one example of thoughtful criticism of BookCon’s errors in judgment.)

What I want to say, as a reader, and as a person unconnected with the book industry (except to the extent I fund them with my frequent trips to the neighborhood bookstore), is this: of all industries out there, I’d have expected better from the book industry.  I’d have expected this industry to be the most open, the most diverse, the most willing to listen to criticism.  Isn’t that what books are all about – to open our perspectives, to allow us to see the world through different eyes, to let us live as others do for a little while?  Isn’t an all-male, lily-white lineup of celebrities completely missing the point?

Diversity is important.  And it’s not just racial diversity that we demand.  We want to hear voices of women, voices of those born and raised in other states and other countries, voices of those from different backgrounds, different religions, different ages, different fields of study and work, different points of view.  We want all perspectives, and from a major event like BookCon, we don’t just want this.  We expect it.  There is no experience, no work, no discussion, that is not enriched by the addition of new and different voices, with new and different things to add.  That is reality.  We sort of thought you would know that, BookCon, but evidently you don’t.  Evidently, there are still people who need to be told about diversity.

So, let’s talk.

Have you been following the BookCon controversy?  What do you think?

*Don’t get me wrong.  I think there are plenty of people from other generations who value diversity and don’t need to be told that it’s a positive and important thing.  I’ve worked with plenty of them.  But my personal experience is as a member of Generation Y, so that’s the perspective from which I write this. I do think that Gen-Y, and much of X, were the first generations to come to their diversity values organically, by growing up thinking, “Well, obviously.”  But please feel free to disagree with me – let’s just all be respectful.

**Since this is one of the more controversial posts I’ve done, it warrants saying (and this might be obvious, too): this post represents my personal opinions and is not written on behalf of my employer (an organization I do not identify here, in any event, because this is a personal blog).  And this should go without saying, but just in case: no part of this post is intended as legal advice.

Read Much? Not Much. Or, My First Readathon.

So, if you’re into the book blogging world, you’ve probably come across the readathon concept.  I’m a little fuzzy on the rules, but my basic understanding is that you set aside a day for reading as much as possible and neglecting your housework, and because hundreds of other people are all doing this as well and it’s organized with cheerleaders and everything, you get the privilege of calling it a readathon instead of just “Saturday.”

Anyway, I love the idea of reading all day – obviously, since I did plenty of that once upon a time, before children.  And I would love to read all day while people leave me encouraging notes, as if I need encouragement.  But for various reasons, I’d never joined in on a readathon before.  There was always something going on – either I was on vacation (and sightseeing, not a beach or lake vacation where a readathon would actually be practicable), or I had family commitments or a big race, or a tiny baby who needed too much of my attention.  I would follow jealously along on Twitter, kicking myself for not signing up at least to cheer.  And I always promised myself: someday.

Finally I decided: someday would be April 26, 2014, the date of the spring installment of Dewey’s 24 Hour Readathon.  It was, once again, not a great weekend for me.  I have a little kid who wants attention (and deserves attention, and is WAY too cute to ignore) and it was also the week before the Five Boro Bike Tour, so I had a couple of training rides to get in.  I knew there was no way I’d be able to put as much reading time in as I would have pre-baby, pre-hectic weekends.  But I decided I’d go for it anyway.

The first task in any readathon is to pick your books.  Here was my stack:

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The Mummy Case, by Elizabeth Peters; Bronte: Everyman’s Library Pocket Poets (poems by Emily Bronte – for National Poetry Month; I was slacking); Wigs on the Green, by Nancy Mitford; Henrietta’s War, by Joyce Dennys; William Shakespeare’s Star Wars: Verily, A New Hope, by Ian Doescher; The Pericles Commission, by Gary Corby.  Since I knew I wouldn’t actually be reading 24 hours, or anywhere close to it, I really didn’t think I’d get through all of these.  But this was my lineup of choices.

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Sometimes I’m not the brightest.  I didn’t exactly read the directions on the readathon site, and didn’t realize that there were different start times for each time zone.  I sort of thought the readathon started at midnight wherever you are, and ended at midnight the following night.  Actually, for my time zone, it went 8:00 a.m. to 8:00 a.m.  I started at 6:24 a.m.  Oopsie, then.

Anyway.  I decided to start with The Mummy Case, since I was 223 pages into it (out of 404) and wanted to finish.  I read steadily for almost two hours, then had to break off to feed Peanut her breakfast and get us both ready for Stroller Strides.  (It’s a part of the weekend that we both really enjoy, and we had missed the previous weekend and won’t be able to make it next weekend, so it took priority over the readathon.)  We got back from Stroller Strides around 11:30.  I gave Peanut lunch, put her down for her nap, and then got ready for what I hoped would be a ten mile bike ride.

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About two miles in, the hail started.  I had also made the unwise decision of wearing skimpy bike shorts, and it was in the 30s.  Since I couldn’t feel my legs, there were hailstones under my helmet, and the readathon clock was ticking, I gave up the ride as a bad job and headed back after only six miles.  (I had a thirty-five miler on the schedule for Sunday, so it wasn’t like this was my big training ride of the weekend.)

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Back home: lunch, and more Amelia Peabody.  I am loving these mysteries, but more about that coming in a future post.

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Done with book the first!  I decided to keep track of my time with this handy digital bookmark, and it tells me I’d been reading for 2 hours, 26 minutes at this point.  That’s already more than I thought I’d manage, so I was pretty pleased.

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Snacktime, and on to book the second.  As I mentioned, I’d been slacking on my plan to read through this volume of Emily Bronte’s poems for National Poetry Month, so I decided some forced reading time would get me back on track.  Time for a Bronte binge.

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Man, Emily Bronte is depressing.  More about this to come in a future post (on Friday!) but the woman had a serious fixation on the grave.  It was a good thing I had someone so cute to look at as I read.  Here we are enjoying an afternoon snack (Peanut) and a poem that, at first, seemed to be about something other than death, but of course ended up being depressing (me).

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Peanut also decided to get in on the readathon action.  She spent at least thirty minutes – more like an hour, I think, but I was in no place to count – sitting on the floor, “reading aloud” from her Mother Goose book.  Like mother, like daughter.

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Late afternoon, more readathon views.  I’m still reading depressing poetry, and so is Peanut.

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Eventually, it was time to break for dinner (pizza, which seems to be the official readathon dinner food, and wings, because Buffalo), and to give Peanut her bottle and stories and bedtime snuggles.  With her tucked cozily away upstairs, I returned to Bronte and finished around 8:30 or a little after.  Reading time: 4 hours, 40 minutes.

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With book the second finished, it was on to book the third.  I chose Henrietta’s War, because I was looking for something short and a bit lighter after an afternoon with the least cheery Bronte sister (and that is saying something), and because I’ve been meaning to read this one for a long time.  I also decided to eat Peanut’s Easter cookie from Grandma and Grandpa.  In my defense, I tried to cut it up for her, but my knife didn’t want to go through the royal icing.  In my further defense, I actually slipped and cut the inside of my mouth on this.  So I’m glad I didn’t feed it to Peanut.  But sorry anyway, Grandma and Grandpa.  It was delicious.

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Henrietta’s War was fantastic, and I loved it pretty much from page one.  But… I was getting pretty tired.

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I moved upstairs and took a short reading break to put sheets on the bed (laundry day).  Then I climbed in and curled up with Henrietta and Mrs. Savernack and Lady B and Faith and Colonel Simpkins for a bit longer.  Henrietta kept me laughing (what a wonderful pen-pal she’d make!) but eventually I couldn’t keep my eyes open any longer.

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10:49 p.m. – Book closed, lights out, readathon done, at least for me.  6 hours and 28 minutes of reading is more than I expected to do, not as much as most of the readathon participants did, but good for a busy mom who wasn’t committed enough to make it 24 hours but wanted to play along, at least once.

Will I readathon again?  You betcha!  Dewey’s readathon was well organized, and I got lots of encouraging messages and “likes” on Instagram and Twitter all day from the cheerleaders.  There’s another one coming up in October, and I’d love to really commit and try to make it longer.  Unless it’s marathon weekend, in which case… well, maybe an audiobook.

Did you participate in the Dewey’s 24 Hour Readathon this weekend?  How’d you do?

32 Things: Update 2

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I just had my unbirthday, which means (1) I’m halfway to 33 – ugh, this year is going by way too fast; and (2) it’s time for another 32 things update.  I feel like I just did one, but anyway.  Here we go again.

1.  First, a BIG one: Visit my BFF in Germany next summer (and maybe tack a week in Austria on there too).  I know this will be a challenge to pull off with a toddler, but we really want to try.  Hubby, R and I are all super excited.  Sadly, this isn’t going to happen this year.  We tried.  We looked for a good flight and just couldn’t find anything that wouldn’t be insanely tough on Peanut.  It’s a shame, because it’s probably the only time we would have had the chance to visit R on one of her overseas adventures – it seems like this may be the last one.  But it isn’t something we can do at our current stage of life, which is a pity.

2.  Write my grandmother at least once a month (I don’t expect replies, just want her to receive letters from me).  I have not been good about this AT ALL.  But I did knit her a cozy shawl and mail it to her with a letter, so that’s something.  I need to get on top of this ASAP, though.

3.  Visit Frank Lloyd Wright’s Greycliff.

4.  Run the 2013 Buffalo-Niagara YMCA Turkey Trot on Thanksgiving Day.  Such a fun race with my sisters-in-law!  Read my recap here.

5.  Read and blog about 20 classic books for The Classics Club.  Blogs posted for Anne of Green Gables, Anne of Avonlea, Anne of the Island, Anne of Windy Poplars, Anne’s House of Dreams, Anne of Ingleside, Rainbow Valley, Rilla of Ingleside, Jane Eyre, Middlemarch and Excellent Women.  I’m currently working on balancing reading time with my new hectic schedule since going back to work, and have mainly been reading quick, cozy mysteries.  But I have some plans to knock off a few more classics soon..

6.  Make refrigerator jam.

7.  Re-read Laura Ingalls Wilder’s Little House series.  I can’t believe it took me so long to re-read this series, which I loved as a little girl.  My thoughts on experiencing the Little House books as an adult are right here.

8.  Join a group at church.

9.  Road-trip to Ithaca for a weekend.

10.  Knit a dress for Peanut.

11.  Learn to play three new piano pieces.

12.  Go to see Shakespeare performed in Delaware Park.

13.  Have a date night with hubby at Rue Franklin.

14.  Knit through 1/4 of my yarn stash.  Working on this!  I’ve made infinity scarves for myself and my mom, a scarf for my grandmother, two “practice” hats for myself, a slouchy beret for my sister-in-law, a neck warmer, and I’ve got another infinity scarf on the needles now.  I’ve done it all using stash yarn and I’m working on emptying one of my Rubbermaid tubs of yarn before we move next.

15.  Write a guest blog.  I have some kind offers (thanks, friends!) and some ideas.  Hoping to draft up posts and send them to my pals soon.

16.  Take Peanut for a bike ride in one of those hilarious trailers.  I’ve had my bike tuned up (had to – it’d sat for about two years, and I had to get it back in shape before I started training for the Five Boro Bike Tour) and I think I’ve picked out a bike trailer to buy for Peanut.  I’ve also scouted out a few fun-looking bike trails.  Can’t wait to get out for some family bike rides this spring and summer.

17.  Finish Level I of the Rosetta Stone French course.

18.  Spend a few days (a week if I can swing it) with my high school BFF and our kids.

19.  Knit a lace beret.  Done!  I knitted up a slouchy eyelet beret for my sister-in-law.  She loved it.

20.  Go to a Sabres game!  (Ideally, I’d also like them to win.  C’mon guys, for me?)

21.  Overcome my fear of baking bread – a holdover from last year.

22.  Get in the habit of better skin care – another holdover from last year.  Working on this, too.  I’ve gotten into a pretty good moisturizing routine.  Next I’d like to make time to exfoliate once or twice every week.

23.  Volunteer with Literacy New York – Buffalo-Niagara.  I worked with a student for several months before I had to back out – my work schedule was too hectic, and my student seemed to be in a place in life where her schedule didn’t support tutoring either.  But I loved getting to know her and helping her a little bit along in her journey.  I hope that when I have some more spare time, I can go back to this program.

24.  Knit a cozy shawl for my grandmama.  Done.  I actually sent the shawl to my other grandmother, who I thought would get more use out of it.  She loved it and that made me smile big.

25.  Go see a movie in the theater.

26.  Read South Riding, by Winifred Holtby.

27.  Buy a Sabres hockey jersey for Peanut.  (She already has a Cornell jersey.)

28.  Learn the Tunisian crochet stitch and make myself a scarf.

29.  Do some charity knitting.  I’m thinking hats for preemies?

30.  Read a book by Umberto Eco.

31.  Try out five new hikes in WNY.  We checked out Tifft Nature Preserve and had a wonderful, snowy walk.  (Look for spring, summer and fall posts to come).  And I’m planning plenty more hikes.  My inlaws love hiking, and so do our friends Zan and Paul, so I think we’ll have no shortage of friends for the trail.

32.  Another BIG one: buy a house.  This is FINALLY in progress!  Now that I have a job, we have a budget.  We just met with our realtor for the first time and are starting the process of seeing houses.  I can’t wait to be settled in our own space again.

Not bad.  I’m trying.  Lots of the smaller, less-commitment items – like reading books by Umberto Eco and Winifred Holtby, and knitting for Peanut, and the like, haven’t happened.  But it’s all about trying.  I’m trying hard to make this the best year I can.  That’s all I can do!

Easter 2014

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Hoppy (belated) Easter!  Hop was the word of the day this year because a holiday dedicated entirely to bunnies (or so Peanut thinks) is The. Limit.

But I’m getting ahead of myself.

Easter celebrations this year started on Saturday night, as we dyed our eggs.  I love having eggs dyed and I know it’s an easy thing to do, but I always get it into my head that it’s a huge hassle and mess and I dread it and procrastinate as long as possible.  It really wasn’t that bad.  A few rounds in the Paas cups and we had a nice little harvest.

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On Sunday morning, Peanut was up at her customary early hour, so we bundled her downstairs to check out her Easter basket.  The bunny had been by and had left her a Peter Rabbit-themed basket, complete with a set of melamine plates and cups, a stuffed Peter, a counting book with a Peter Rabbit finger puppet, and two of the Peter Rabbit books – The Tale of Peter Rabbit and The Tale of the Flopsy Bunnies – in the new Warne editions.

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As I rather thought would be the case, the dishes were the biggest hit.  Peanut amused herself for a good twenty minutes with carrying two of the cups around the living room, offering drinks to her toys.

We fed Peanut a quick breakfast and then it was off to church.  We had barely arrived when we bumped into Grandpa, who was getting ready to sing with the rest of the choir.  We said a quick hello and then headed to the nursery to play until the Easter service began.

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Why yes, those are Jesus & the Apostles finger puppets.  No big deal.

The Cathedral is a beautiful space and the choir is fantastic, but I missed what felt like most of the service (hubby assures me I wasn’t gone as long as it felt) because we’d barely made it through the processional hymn when I realized that the increasingly antsy child sandwiched between us had a good reason for all her twitching.  Peanut and I rushed back to the nursery and it was off with her sweet Easter outfit and on with the romper we’d tossed in the diaper bag as backup.  Once Peanut was changed and her wet clothes were packed away, I decided everyone would be happier if she got the rest of her antsies out in the nursery.  So we hung out while Peanut played trucks and ate cookies with the other littles, then headed back upstairs just in time for communion.

Peanut passed out in the car on the way home, but we woke her up when we got there.  We arrived to find that Nana and Grandad had laid out a yummy, light brunch to tide us over until dinner.  Kielbasa (turkey for Peanut and me; pork for everyone else), horseradish, rye bread, sweet bread, pickles, eggs, and a butter lamb – yes, please.  Peanut worked off the brunch by pushing Peter Rabbit and Goodnight Moon Bunny around in her Easter present from Nana and Grandad: this hilarious stroller.

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After brunch, Peanut headed upstairs for a nap, Nana and Grandad went for a long walk, and I baked a carrot cake and prepped the veggies for dinner.  Halfway through Peanut’s nap, Grandpa arrived after finishing his long choir day and we settled in for some much-needed relaxation with a book (me) and beers (the men).

By 2:30, Peanut was up and chatting in her crib, so we found ourselves another cute spring dress and entertained ourselves with an egg hunt in the sunroom while dinner cooked.  Please excuse me for posting all of these pictures, but can you blame me?  Behold this cuteness:

 

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Dinner was served around 5:00 p.m.  We had roasted chickens, carrots and Brussels sprouts, and a Romaine salad with an herbed yogurt dressing.

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Dinner was delish, but all I could think about was what was coming next.

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Why yes, that is a carrot cake (Pioneer Woman’s recipe) with cream cheese frosting.  WHAT.  I need to make carrot cake more often.  It’s one of my favorites.  (Second only to Angel Food, and a very close second at that.)

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I think Peanut had a pretty fabulous Easter.  Come to think of it, so did we.  And the best part?  I think that would have to be the gorgeously warm, sunny day we enjoyed.  Is it really spring?  Is this interminable winter finally over?  That would be an Easter miracle, indeed.

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Happy Easter to all of my friends who celebrated yesterday!  I hope your day was as glorious as ours was.

Poetry Friday: “Song By Julius Angora”

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Song by Julius Angora
by Emily Bronte

Awake! awake! how loud the stormy morning
Calls up to life the nations resting round;
Arise, Arise, is it the voice of mourning
That breaks our slumber with so wild a sound?

The voice of mourning? Listen to its pealing;
That shout of triumph drowns the sigh of woe;
Each tortured heart forgets its wonted feeling,
Each faded cheek resumes its long-lost glow –

Our souls are full of gladness, God has given
Our arms to victory, our foes to death;
The crimson ensign waves its sheet in heaven –
The sea-green Standard lies in dust beneath.

Patriots, no stain is on your country’s glory
Soldiers, preserve that glory bright and free
Let Almedore in peace, and battle gory,
Be still a nobler name for victory!

Happy (early) Easter, and happy National Poetry Month!  Reading anything springy?

Peanut’s Picks: MOTHER GOOSE

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Mother GooseMother Goose is a large, aggressive bird who sips tea and haunts children’s dreams.  This is something you might not know about geese, but it’s true.  They are angry, violent birds with a talent for making up terrifying rhymes.  That’s why, when my mom asked me what I would like to talk about for National Poetry Month, I picked Mother Goose.  Because what is the point of poetry if it’s not to make children cry and cling to their mothers?  (Their real mothers, not their bird mothers.  As a matter of fact, let’s get this one thing straight right now, before we go any further: Mother Goose, YOU ARE NOT MY MOTHER.)

Anyway, Mother Goose is a super scary book of horrifying poems.  My mom didn’t want to get me this book because she said it was too scary and she would rather I read A.A. Milne, but my Nana wanted me to taste delicious fear so she bought it for me while my mom was at work one day.  Thanks, Nana!

It’s fun to look at the cover of this book and say “Honk, honk,” because that is what geese say.  But the fun stops there.  As soon as you open the cover you will be assaulted by terrifying images like enslaved mice and children in the process of breaking their heads.

Example:

Jack and Jill went up the hill
To fetch a pail of water.
Jack fell down and broke his crown
And Jill came tumbling after.

Then up Jack got and home did trot
As fast as he could caper.
He went to bed and plastered his head
With vinegar and brown paper.

In case you are dense about poetry, let me explain.  This is not a poem about a boy king, as you might have thought, although that would be better.  This is actually about a botched medical procedure.  Jack is a young peasant and that means that his “crown” is actually his head, because wishful thinking.  He breaks it, then tries to perform head reconstructive surgery on himself.  Unless you like gross medical stories, this poem will haunt your dreams.

Here’s another example:

Peter, Peter, pumpkin eater
Had a wife and couldn’t keep her.
He put her in a pumpkin shell,
And there he kept her very well.

This is a good example of how poetry can make you think.  My parents disagree about what this poem is about.  My dad says it’s about infidelity.  My mom says it’s about false imprisonment.  Either way, I don’t want to touch that pumpkin with a ten foot pole.  Just look at the dead eyes of Mrs. Peter in any of the pictures, and you’ll see what I mean.

One more:

Pease porridge hot!
Pease porridge cold!
Pease porridge in the pot,
Nine days old.

Some like it hot,
Some like it cold,
Some like it in the pot,
Nine days old!

This is a tricky one, so let me explain.  Pease Porridge is a poem about a child whose mother is so lazy that she doesn’t go to the grocery store for almost two weeks, which to a child is the equivalent of years.  The child has to eat nine day old porridge (yum?) and it doesn’t say this part but I’m pretty sure it’s implied that everyone gets food poisoning.

Isn’t poetry fun?

Lesson for parents: Save your pennies, because my therapy is going to be expensive.

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Yay, National Poetry Month!  You can go ahead and buy Mother Goose rhymes for your children here, or support your local indie bookstore.  These are not affiliate links, but my mom should probably look into that so she can start saving up because I’m scarred for life.

 

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I may have dedicated my month of poetry reading to Emily Bronte, but I can’t resist sharing one poem by my favorite poet, e.e. cummings.  I’ve loved this poem for years, but it gets more and more meaningful and more and more special to me.  The reason: two people, and they know who they are.

i carry your heart
by e.e. cummings
Source: The Poetry Foundation

i carry your heart with me(i carry it in
my heart)i am never without it(anywhere
i go you go,mydear;and whatever is done
by only me is your doing,my darling)

i fear no fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)i want
no world(for beautiful you are my world,my true)
and it’s you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows
higher than soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that’s keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)

Poetry Friday: “Tell Me Tell Me”

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Tell Me Tell Me
by Emily Bronte

Tell me tell me smiling child
What the past is like to thee?
An Autumn evening soft and mild
With a wind that sighs mournfully

Tell me what is the present hour?
A green and flowery spray
Where a young bird sits gathering its power
To mount and fly away

And what is the future happy one?
A sea beneath a cloudless sun
A mighty glorious dazzling sea
Stretching into infinity

Happy National Poetry Month!  Have you read a poem today?

2014 Intention: Update 1

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As you may remember, instead of making resolutions or setting goals for 2014, I decided to set an intention (a la yoga class) and let that intention guide my decisions and actions this year.  My intention for 2014 is: A Better Life.  Basically, I want to take the already-pretty-great life I have going and make it even better.  Here’s how I’ve been working to create a better life for myself, hubby, and Peanut so far this year:

January

  • Started a new habit of drinking a glass of warm lemon water every morning.  This was an idea I saw in Giada’s Feel Good Food and I wanted to give it a try.  Lemon is great for the liver, and warm water is a little less shocking to the early-morning system than cold water is.  I’ve tried, in the past, to get into the habit of drinking a glass of water before I eat or drink anything else, and it’s finally stuck.  (The lemon flavor really helps – and that’s coming from someone who loves water and has no trouble getting 64 ounces every day.)  I keep lemon wedges in a Rubbermaid container in the fridge and every morning, the first thing I do when I get downstairs is pop one in a glass and fill it with some warm water.  It’s such a nice, gentle way to get going and I love that I get two cups’ worth of water in right away.
  • Experimented with a gluten-free lifestyle.  I sometimes feel a little silly trying out new eating philosophies – like, am I a sheep?  Am I succumbing to trends?  But I’ve been doing some reading about gluten sensitivities, and gluten was the only food that gave me trouble when I reintroduced it after my last Whole30, so I think it’s worthwhile exploring whether eating gluten-free might benefit me.  By asking these kinds of questions and looking for the answers, I am working on saying YES to myself and tuning out my worries about what others might think.  (Since going mostly gluten-free, I have fewer headaches and less digestive distress, and I’ve noticed other health improvements, so I think there might be something to it.  I also notice that I feel considerably worse when I am less disciplined about eating gluten-free.  I’m hoping to visit an allergist at some point and get some more concrete answers.)

February

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  • Ran my second half marathon!  Seriously, I’ll bet you’re all sick of hearing about it by this point, and I promise I’ll shut up eventually.  But this was a big thing for me this month.  I loved having the training time be something “just for me” and it meant a lot to me to know that I could chase after this big goal and achieve it.  Running definitely makes my life better in so many ways – it’s good for me, it’s something I can do for myself, and it lets me work to improve.  Now I’m looking to the next step, but more on that later.

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  • Started juicing.  I’ve been wanting a juicer for awhile, but neither the budget nor the kitchen cabinets have space for it at the moment.  So I decided to give juicing in my VitaMix another whirl.  I love the VitaMix for soups, smoothies and baby food, but the one and only time I’d tried to make juice it just didn’t turn out very well.  When I found out that our Stroller Strides instructor had been making fresh juices in a blender, though, I thought I’d better give it another whirl.  (<– See what I did there?)  I’ve come up with a formula for a fresh green juice that I really like, and I’ve been drinking a cup most mornings with my breakfast, and occasionally as an afternoon snack.  I love fresh juices, and I’m so glad I’ve found a way to make them inexpensively at home.  So far, I’m the only one who is really enjoying the homemade green juice.  Hubby says it “tastes better than it has any right to,” but he won’t drink a glass, and Peanut will occasionally take sips from me but she prefers to pirate my morning lemon water.  They’ll come around.

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  • Visited the Buffalo Botanical Gardens – twice!  Hubby planned a Valentine’s Day outing (actually, it was the Saturday after) to Night Lights at the Botanical Gardens – basically, a seasonal event in which the Gardens are kept open late and light shows play in each of the greenhouses.  We all loved the event, but Peanut particularly had a ball.  She discovered the koi pond and was completely entranced by the fish swimming around, and “Pond! Pond! Pond!” is pretty much all we’ve heard since.  So, since she loved it so much, we went back the very next weekend during the day.  Of course it was fun to see her big eyes take in the majesty that is the koi pond (LOLwut?), but I also found it to be a good winter survival tactic (a la my pal Katie).  Spending a couple of hours wandering around in the heated greenhouses, with the winter sun baking down through the glass ceilings, was absolute bliss.  It felt like summer for the afternoon.  You can read more about our Botanical Gardens adventures here, and I’m sure we’ll be going back many times – but especially in the winters.

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March

  • Started a new job!  Although it’s been tough to leave Peanut, she’s in good hands during the day and I know that me bringing in an income is a good thing for our family, and will definitely contribute to a better life for all of us (starting with enabling us to finally start looking for a permanent home, and it’ll feel great to be settled again).  It’s also good for me to get back out there in the legal community, and I’ve been lucky enough to find a position practicing my specialty with a well-regarded firm.  I couldn’t ask for a better situation and I think this is going to be a great thing for our family.
  • Taken several family walks, including one at Tifft Nature Preserve and one with Grandma and Grandpa at Chestnut Ridge (the same park we visited with Zan and Paul back in December).  Even though there was still snow on the ground for most of the month, we were so over the indoors.  It was good for all of us to get out and breathe some fresh air.

Have you set an intention for 2014?  How’s it going?